7 Tammuz 5983 / 26 June 2023
Day 177 Readings:
BST: Leviticus 27:1-34
DKL: 2 Kings 10, Acts 11, Psalm 144, Proverbs 17:27-28
Dearest Yousef,
There's not a day in this trip that I don't cry. At the park I cried and I continue to grieve for this family of mine. May the LORD have mercy on me and one day relieve me from all the pain and suffering I have with this family who carry HIS name but who are not after GOD's own heart. They seek power and their own pleasure, and honor. In the morning we left for Yokohama, and my sister was already angry because my brothers did not wake up early to meet as we agreed. I also didn't wake up as early as I liked and I've been sleeping for 8 hours for the past few days now, which means I am sad. But at least I am moving my bowels here thanks to the herbal medicines for my large intestines to move out waste. We first went to the Cup Noodle factory and then we went to the Mall that I enjoyed because I was able to enjoy the Gachapon and got myself useful things for "pasalubong" (tiny gifts that we give to those back at home) Then we went to Chinatown to have some snacks and then we went to Gundam the Robot who was called Voltes 5 back when I used to watch animae as a child. Then I went to the Rose Garden Park to spend time with alone with the KING praying Psalm 144 and with HIM I always cry because of the pain and brokeness of my heart, and I pray for you and for us to be together soon. Sometimes my tears are because why I'm still not with you, what's taking so long, it's so painful to wait and watch my family grow tired and take me for granted. But I have to endure this painful time waiting for GOD to bring us together. I pray for GOD to give me the strength to wait and endure a little longer. I pray always, it is the only way I can survive. Then my parents came sitting beside me and then we spend time talking and I was able to pour some of my heart towards them. These are the moments that I am grateful for, that I wait to have with them and will cherish forever. We watched the sunset at the garden and then we went to have dinner at China Town where my siblings all had buffet while my parents and I had set menu. Then we went back to our hotel riding the Subway and walking. It feels good to have more than 10,000 steps everyday but I would rather be home right now taking care of Sunshine because all her puppies have died except for 2 that survived. I just still trust GOD for what HE has allowed because if they were not gonna survive anyway while I'm still there, it would cause me so much pain. All in all, I am thankful for everything, for this trip, for my parents who are still healthy. Most of all when we arrived in the hotel I am grateful for GOD giving me a very precious moment with my sister, she cried while I poured my pain out because she was probably hurting for me. I am so thankful she still carries me in her heart. I am so thankful for her efforts to plan this trip. I am so thankful I still have her and my brother David who respect and honors me. But the LORD will be the ONE to deal with each of us accordingly. I will entrust my life to the FATHER who loves me and knows better than my best for me. My only prayer is that HE will give me the grace to continue to endure waiting for HIS promise to come to pass for both you and me to be married as one.
Your Sister,
Marie Christine