19 Tammuz 5983 / 8 July 2023
Day 189 Readings:
BST: Galatians 3:1-14, Dueteronomy 21:22-23, Leviticus 18:1-30
DKL: 1 Chronicles 6, Acts 26, Psalm 6, Proverbs 18:20-21
Dear Yousef,
You know I have been seeking GOD about HIS specific directions in my life as a missionary. But Lo and Behold!
Hallelujah!!!! WOW! GOD has made it clear to me today that HE is sending me to Israel because HE is sending me to the Jewish people, and gentiles there. Oh wow!!! It's so scary but exciting at the same time. You know, when I started reading the book of Acts 26, today's reading from my Bible Study Plan guide, I thought to myself, Oh uh, maybe GOD is not sending me at all because this is the verse GOD used to send me back to the Philippines when HE said "Acts 26:17 NLT And I will rescue you from both your own people (filipino believers) and the Gentiles (nonbelievers). Yes, I am sending you to the Gentiles" because I can remember that time I was using the NLT version of the Bible in London and I remember sending you back to your own people and the gentiles so to me, it's very clear that this means the Philippines! But Lo and behold today!!! I thought I would read the same thing! But of all the versions I used today, it was NKJV which specifically said: Acts 26:17 NKJV "I will deliver you from the Jewish people, as well as from the Gentiles (Arabs & foreigners), to whom I now send you,"WOW!!! Just wow!!! I am so happy for GOD's leading to me. Forget about Doulus and Logos because it is clearly not GOD's will. But Doulus could be a time for me to be trained in mission work so probably GOD is sending me to Doulus first and then to Israel after 3-6 months. I have to seek GOD more about it. Also, I was communicating with Sister Lisa from Germany last night who had been an intercessor for Israel in the House of Prayer. She gave me some websites that I can look into. I have so much excitement receiving this from GOD. I know that no matter what obstacles I may face, when it is HIS will, nothing can ever stop it! It took time for me to receive this message because my mother kept coming to me first to give me a coach bag and I was like "thank you mom I appreciate this" but I was not after material wealth as she spoke again to me about going to another church because she could not accept accept David's girlfriend being in our church, I stood my ground and explained to her that we have to respect David and his revelation and vision from GOD. If he says he will marry her because GOD says so, we have to respect that. And she felt sad but I can't make her happy with lies, I have to stand for the TRUTH and continued defending my choice on why I have now accepted her. And I think she went in and out of the Tabernacle of our house 3x and so finally I was able to concentrate of my devotions with the LORD and wallaaaah!
I receive it specifically that HE is sending me to the JEWISH People! Okay let's complile everything the LORD
1 Samuel 16:1 New King James Version
1 Now the Lord said to Samuel, “How long will you mourn for Saul, seeing I have rejected him from reigning over Israel? Fill your horn with oil, and go; I am sending you to Jesse the Bethlehemite. For I have [a]provided Myself a king among his sons.”
Acts 22:10 So I said, ‘What shall I do, Lord?’ And the Lord said to me, ‘Arise and go into Damascus, and there you will be told all things which are appointed for you to do.’
Acts 26:17 I will deliver you from the Jewish people, as well as from the Gentiles, to whom I now send you, 18 to open their eyes, in order to turn them from darkness to light, and from the power of Satan to God, that they may receive forgiveness of sins and an inheritance among those who are sanctified by faith in Me.’
I feel the urgency of GOD as HE has been speaking to me through these verses, may the LORD provide the right avenue for me to come with the right people who are radical for KING JESUS and of HIS coming. I believe that Jesse is a Paletinian who is Sheik Hassan Yousef and the son GOD chose for Himself is Mosab Yousef, the only thing I think is that Mosab is not in Israel but I believe GOD is bringing him back there to work with Israel.
Shabbat Shalom
PINCHAS (Phinehas / Dark Skinned)
Numbers 25:10–29:40 (30:1); 1 Kings 18:46-19:21
“Pinchas son of Eleazar, the son of Aaron, the priest, has turned my anger away from the Israelites. Since he was as zealous for My honor among them as I am, I did not put an end to them in my zeal." (Numbers 25:11)
Haftarah Pinchas: Jeremiah 1:1–2:3; M’lakhim Alef (1 Kings) 18:46–19:21
Jeremiah 1
4 Here is the word of Adonai that came to me:
5 “Before I formed you in the womb, I knew you;before you were born, I separated you for myself.I have appointed you to be a prophet to the nations.”
6 I said, “Oh, Adonai Elohim, I don’t even know how to speak! I’m just a child!” (Who am I LORD but a female child?) 7 But Adonai said to me, “Don’t say, ‘I’m just a child.’ (No you are no longer a child, your gender will serve its advantage to you) “For you will go to whomever I send you,and you will speak whatever I order you. 8 Do not be afraid of them,for I am with you, says Adonai,to rescue you.”
9 Then Adonai put out his hand and touched my mouth, and Adonai said to me,
“There! I have put my words in your mouth.10 Today I have placed you over nations and kingdomsto uproot and to tear down,to destroy and to demolish,to build and to plant.”
11 The word of Adonai came to me, asking, “Yirmeyahu, what do you see?” I answered, “I see a branch from an almond tree [a]. 12 Then Adonai said to me, “You have seen well, because I am watching [b] to fulfill my word.”
1 Kings) 19
13 So it was, when Elijah heard it, that he wrapped his face in his mantle and went out and stood in the entrance of the cave. Suddenly a voice came to him, and said, “What are you doing here, Elijah?”
14 And he said, “I have been very zealous for the Lord God of hosts; because the children of Israel have forsaken Your covenant, torn down Your altars, and killed Your prophets with the sword. I alone am left; and they seek to take my life.”
15 Then the Lord said to him: “Go, return on your way to the Wilderness of Damascus; and when you arrive, anoint Hazael as king over Syria. 16 Also you shall anoint Jehu the son of Nimshi as king over Israel. And Elisha the son of Shaphat of Abel Meholah you shall anoint as prophet in your place.
B’rit Hadashah suggested readings for Parashah Pinchas: Mattityahu (Matthew) 26:1–30; Mark 14:1–26; Luke 22:1–20; Yochanan (John) 2:13–22; 7:1–13, 37–39; 11:55–12:1; 13:1; 18:28, 39; 19:14; Acts 2:1–21; 12:3–4; 20:5–6, 16; 27:9–11; 1 Corinthians 5:6 – 8; 16:8; Messianic Jews (Hebrews) 11:28 ; 1 Peter 3:8–4:19
Dear AVI,
O HOLY One of Israel!!! Toda for YOUR very strong WORD of confirmation to me today on this lovely Shabbat Pinchas where Pinchas is being rewarded and promoted by YOU because he was zealous for YOU and YOU are the ONE who made me Zealous and YOU are now promoting me too as YOU are sending me to the place YOU want me to establish me according to YOUR WORD in Psalm 87. YOU do the same for me and for just anyone YOU have called us to be zealous for YOU because YOU are the ONE who enables us to be zealous and I praise YOU AVI for YOUR glorious supply of power through YOUR HOLY SPIRIT that indwells within us. O LORD, toda for the Promise of bringing me to Israel toda for this wonderful promise of Mosab My Yousef as my husband. I believe it with all my heart even though the enemy seeks to discourage and lie to me, HELP me to stand YOUR ground and deliver YOUR Promises to me O GOD! I will rejoice and enjoy my blessings of family and comfort today knowing that One day YOU are sending me to Israel very very soon.
Ba HaShem YESHUA HaMashiach, Amen!
Dear Yousef,
Today was the last day of prayer and fasting and I joined the dance practice with the young people for a while at 1pm but I was only joining for a time because the dance team was already full with 12 people, if we add more, we will not have enough room to dance at the stage of a small church. Our church can only accomodate upto 300 people the max. So I did not feel left out even though I was supposed to join the team for anniversary because I lost my zeal to dance especially when the motivation to dance in the first place was gone and it was because of Jay, the 6th guy that GOD revealed I was to marry but was only for a short while because he revealed his true colors that he was only trying to woe me because he needs something from me but he actually got back with his girlfriend and GOD broke my heart once again for telling me something that is not going to come to pass. Even while I was in Manila I kept beleiving for that filipino promise but thankfully and because of GOD's mercy on me HE told me no! Enough is enough! it's not him anymore, it's you all along. And so I was kind of really tired chasing GOD around so I told GOD, please GOD let this be final, let it be Mosab Hassan Yousef, do not change YOUR mind anymore because I am so tired of chasing YOUR Promise. So I didn't join the dance but I wanted to join the band so probably next Saturday I will be joining the band to play jazz guitars and I hope it to be good at it perhaps I can make use of my musical skills when I finally go to volunteer in Israel this year. Anyway at 3pm was the last and final hour of our fasting and after our last day of prayer, we all broke the fast together at around 4.55pm and I ate my heart out with the poridge that was cooked by our Pastor's wife Grace because she is a cook and she cooks really well, I pray I could be as great as her, if only I would be assigned to be an assistant cook in Israel I think I would be good at it, there's many things I want to do that I cannot pursue if I am in my hometown because of culture, mindset and lifestyle. Culture, in my family if you are in the kitchen, you are poor. But my sister in law proved this wrong when they set up a restaurant business in our City. When I arrived from London I adopted the arab women's way of life, I wanted to cook what they taught me in London but my family just discouraged me beause they don't like any middle eastern food. So I stopped it, come to think of it, my family had such a huge influence or impact on me that I am no longer who I am when I am with them. I think this is the reason why I feel so lost. This is the reason why GOD must want me to be away from them because when I am on my own, maybe I can discover who I am meant to be. All I know is that I am anything GOD wants me to be, at any season or any time. I am what a career defines people, I can be anything GOD wants me to be. I do wish I had some sort of career that I am known for but it's okay, I am still discovering who I am and I will find out more when I am already sent by GOD to where HE is calling me to go. So far, it's in the middle east at the borders of Israel Bethlehem and Damascus... I still have yet to uncover deeper meanings of these things. I still want to be your wife, really and truly, this is my deepest desire, to be a support and a blessing and help to you, a partner you can rely on and take rest with and unload your burdens with. I will carry your cross with you, because a helpmeet is what Eves are called to do for their Adams. So we spent time fellowshipping while I was there and I brought Pauline home to her rented condominium in Banawa and we talked for a while. I am excited to be sent, I just don't want to be in a hurry but I feel the urgency... I have not even settled down in Cebu after our Trip to Japan yet but here I am already planning my next trip to Israel where I will Volunteer with a Ministry that GOD will place me. So I am praying for the right house, and the right family that I can be a part of that is called to be pray for Jerusalem. May I discover HIS will along the way as the days pass by, I just want to follow where HE is leadingme... I have been waiting to be taken out of my house not because I have taken my blessings for granted or because I am bored but I am empty without GOD's Shekinah Glory that is why where HE goes, I will go... HIS glory that had been around me in my home seem to be leaving my house as I have been called to leave this season... I felt it even on June, that the Ark of the Covenant is going to another place and where HE goes I will follow! I will see you real soon, and see you in Jerusalem this year! I would rather live in Tel Aviv you know or Haifa, or Caesarea but wherever GOD is leading me I pray to follow HIM clearly. I am excited for this new adventure, knowing that I will be meeting you soon! Thank you for understanding me, and all my weirdness, you're the only one who can.
Love, Your Sister, Marie