6 Tammuz 5983 / 25 June 2023 @ Apa Hotel Shinjuko
Day 176 Readings
BST: Leviticus 25:8-34
DKL: 2 Kings 8-9, Acts 16, Psalm 143, Proverbs 17:26
Dear ABBA,
O HOLY ONE of Israel Great is YOUR Name! KING of Heaven and Earth and all the Universe - YEHOSHUA HaMalkizadik! Toda for the good night's rest, without bad dreams but there was also sadness in the dream. I hear so many sirens at night, of emergency vans passing by and police cars too.
22:45
Please ABBA, take care of me and Mosab Hassan Yousef, please take care of us, please be with us, please speak to me continually regarding YOUR Promise because every hour and day that passes by, I am feeling so pressed and down being with this family who only worship you with their lips but their hearts are far from you. I am grieving everyday, there's not a day that I don't cry in this family trip. Please show me a sign, please send me a sign that Mosab is coming for me, give me a dream give hope to me, send me YOUR WORD, everday speak to me. Thank YOU for the Word YOU gave to me through Pastor Timmy, today I really was encouraged and lifted up by the encouraging words YOU gave me through HIS preaching called: Joseph(from ordinary to extra ordinary) help me O GOD to continue to wait on YOU, to be faithful, to be ready and be bold so that when YOU Promise comes, I am prepared already. My heart is grieving each day not because I am ungrateful for the blessings YOU have given me but because I am oppressed by their pride and hypocrisy. Help me ABBA, give me grace to endure this time of waiting even though I am in vacation my heart is grieving because YOU know my heart O LORD, I want to build my family with Mosab Hassan Yousef, because this is the man YOU have promised me. Please make me happy again MY GOD, by bringing me us together sooner than later. I will forever grieve until YOU bring us together to love and to cherish one another as ONE. Please do not change YOUR mind anymore MY GOD, please do not fail me and dissappoint me anymore, I am at the point of death. Have mercy on ME O LORD, do not forget me anymore, YOU have prepared me, please redeem me, please come to save me from brokeness that my family has inflicted on YOUR Spirit within me. I am so broken, heal me through the husband YOU have promised me. I will not relent until YOU will answer me O GOD, I have no other joy but YOU.
Ba HaShem YEHOSHUA Ha Malkizadik Amen!
Dear Yousef,
I cry everyday I cry for everyday that I am not yet with you. At the Shinsui Outlet, I bought 3 clothes, because I had attended the online service of our church at the Matcha Green Tea House while everybody else shops because my heart is bleeding and grieving every moment I am with my family, every moment that I am not with YOU I am grieving, but GOD is merciful to my family but when will HE have mercy on me??? I have alredy done enough for my family, why am I still stuck with them? Maybe I am not yet ready to be your wife?? And GOD is still preparing me?? I want to beat my heart out why am I not yet ready?? What's lacking within me??? I wish GOD would supernaturally just make me whatever you need me to be!!! I am pleading with GOD to bring us together already, I want to be relieved of all my pain with my family. Everytime I am with them I am grieving, My Spirit cannot contend with this family any longer may the LORD bring me out of them soon, may the LORD give rest to my heart by letting me be covered by you. Please come for me, or else I will come to you... please do not delay, do not waste another minute, please come for me. I am willing to give up anything just so I could be with you already. Please please please, don't make me wait another year more.
Love your Princess Bride,
Marie Christine