A written account of the day 20 Nissan 5781 Pesach 6
Watch 1 - We came back to the Watchtower of Bantayan just a little before 17:55 and I held Shofar in my hands and my ally beside me Gracya offered to record the video and wow! I face them sheep blowing towards Zion, Jerusalem of Israel, they stopped what they were doing and they responded! It was cute and it was all recorded. Then we took baths and dressed ourselves for dinner that night.
We went to Batobalanos St. to hunt for food for the family. I brought so many things with me, I wanted to drink fresh coconut juice because I thought i was gonna do my posting and it's so heavy so I decided to leave everything in the Flying Ark and just take my Rod or Mi10 Cellphone which is my greatest Sword where there is Bible and Flying swords and arrows. My family ate at Big Jell's Restomeat and I walked in looking like a weirdo so everybody was looking at me and Dad told me when I sat with them, hey they are looking at you like you're a foreigner from Morocco, and I said Morocco? Why not Israel? And he said ah yes yes! But I went out of the Restaurant coz I didn't feel comfortable and besides, I'm not eating and I've been looking for a buko! So I went out searching hi and lo for ze buko, but the pokari in 360 pharmacy tempted me and everytime i wanted to buy something to drink the RUACH tell me coconut juice is better, look for it... so I become like a madwoman in that street looking for buko. Then I decide to go to CouCou because I was attracted to that place in the first place when I first passed by it. I went to the bar because there were so many people, asked with hope, if they still have buko and amazingly they did - that's why the RUACH always attract me to the place coucou, so I decide to sit, praise YAH by using my Sword in facebook. Then I been thinking about the 12 stones breastplate of the Priest, and then I search and realize it is the breastplate! Not my clothes, I need the stones! The Ones that St Fe Beach Resort have as door key holders and that's why I was led to make it a necklace because it symbolized the stones and I didn't have to count if it had 12 different kinds, one word from ADONAI and I already believe because I am just gullible that way. And when I was about to post what I have received from Adonai suddenly flying cockroach fly on my legs and all over and I scream and run like a little girl, everybody looked at me and I didn't care I just want it dead. But they couldn't find the evil insect anymore so I decided to transfer location trembling and determined to do my posting but while I was still typing, so many disturbance coming to my phone, Deric call me, Grace call me, and I was about to be saput but I remained calm because I know the tactics of the devil. Then I post by the time 2 of my allies arrived, Deric and Grace. I just realized now, they have been my guardians to keep me so I can do the will of AVI in Heaven. If they didn't come, I don't know what other disturbance will hinder me from doing.
Watch 2 - My whole family now come to coucou to drink fresh cold buko and it was very good thanks to Coucou Bar. Then we came home and did communion and during this time Queen Mother said nice things to me, she said, you look nice with your head covering and your skin glows when you are fasting. I was so happy! Afterwards I came to my Haven inside the Watchtower to do YHVH's will. 2 of my allies come to me join me for a while, then Deric came last and then I was alone, but no! I wasn't alone, the receptionist stays up awake at least the whole night, it was amazing! She was guarding too. And that's why my Night watching was easier.
Watch 3 - so I edited the Article Adonai made me write, regarding the "How to Passover to Overcome" I had to change because it wasn't the roman armor but the Jewish priestly armor that we need to wear!
But I changed to the W Cap which my favorite head covering because I'm not used to the Jewish head dress that they usually wear but My mom really liked it and so I believe she didn't like me wearing head covering at first because she was reminded of the Muslims in her hometown who killed and destroyed the people where she grew up. She was fearful of them.
Before I continue, I just want to really let this out because it's been bothering me. For the past few days now in this beautiful island of Bantayan, Adonai has been speaking to me to get ready to meet my Jewish husband and I have always been excited but somehow there is someone he is putting back in my mind that's quite different from the one I am expecting. And I don't know why but I'm very disturbed by it because I don't want him anymore, he already married another woman and in the WORD of GOD, if I marry anyone who is already married before, I become an adulteress and so will he. For me it's quite impossible that it would be him because I already gave him up years ago but what disturbs me is that of all the people I've seen in my open vision, it's this guy. I didn't see the Red head in an open vision, only this person! No! It can't be, but the RUACH has been making me think of him and I am refusing, with every inch of my being. No no no! I can't believe I'm saying no to My HARI. It's just that when it comes to my love life, I really want it to be blessed and favored because I already waited so long and I'll just receive a second hand? No! But my HARI knows, I will do anything for HIM so I'm just saying no no but actually I will receive him even if it's against every fiber of my being. I'm even folding my hands across right now and shaking my head left to right because I'm resistant totally! Anyway, I'm in turmoil just thinking about it. I love how my HARI is giving my love story in total suspense. Like I really can't imagine how mind blowing it's going to be. Even the red head I'm also hesitant because he gave me the impression that he likes my friend, I don't want to compete with other women and I don't like it when my love story starts with my man liking my friend before he likes me it's stupid! I hate it! Sometimes I feel that no one deserves me anymore, just my HARI My perfect. But it doesn't matter, I'm gonna marry anyone that My HARI choses. My papa likes the red head but my queen mommy likes the first one very very much. I don't like any of them! I'm in turmoil because I know it's near, and the most mind blowing man between them is the very first one. So I don't know anymore I want to not think of it because it breaks my heart... it's like, it's such a broken story, I don't want to think. I checked his facebook just now, please let him still be married, because I don't want him. Please... and they are still married. So I guess I'm safe... it's always like this, the thing you don't want the most, is what GOD wants for you... why?! Please please let it be the red one because I'm going to be devastated if it's the first one! Okay it doesn't matter what I chose because what my HARI wants I know I will love because I don't own my heart, HE does, and even if my mind resists, my heart will say yes to MY KING all the time. I'm that kind of slave, I'm that obsessed with MY KING because man is man, but HE is My Everlasting, MY perfect, My greatest Love and not even a husband can even compete with HIM. My KING is just wow! wow! wow! You have to fall in love with HIM, it's the only way I could ever live my life to the fullest. I'm crazy about My KING! My HARI YESHUA, My Everything! And right now HE sings to me HIS favorite love song, you want to know? It's something just like this!
4th Watch - I usually become so sleepy during this time, I don't know why. But I overcame as I wrote my Watchman's Report and just like that sunrise came so fast...
5th Watch - took a photo of myself with the background of the oceans just as I did when I was in Tel Aviv. Then I went to sleep at 6AM and woke up at 9.30AM
6th Watch - We prepared to go to Bilidbid, that nice Paradise I posted on Facebook. This time, i wore my full gear armor even in the oceans. We arrived at 11AM and always it's the 3 of us Papa King, and Princess Gracya that goes to the deepest. But you know what's the most amazing thing? Is that I was the only one who swam without fins, and Dad saw the key holder on my chest he said "why did you wear that? You might lose that on the ocean? So I put it underneath my suit so that it's kept safe and hidden. We swam and then when we go back to the shore there was buko waiting for us. I was so happy but then I was freezing cold because the wind blew so hard.
7th Watch - We had so much fun in Bilidbid because Mom was consuming the coconuts like she was a coco monster! I saw her eating with a messy mouth full of the coconut it's the funniest thing I've seen that when I saw her dripping with coco on her mouth, the Script of MY HARI suddenly came to me and so I wrote it on the Blazing Ark that my Ally Gracya drives as a horse and the Ark the Carriage! I was laughing to myself when I read it. My HARI is so funny! Then we arrive at Madridejos minutes before the 9th hour or last watch.
8th - I pricked my finger with something so sharp in the food plastic container that I thought it was the foil but then I realized it wasn't! It's the food container that pricked me but the sharp edges of the dead dried fish called dangit. I was so surprised and so the RUACH gave me words and ideas to write everything HE has revealed to me. Then we took a lot of pictures in Madridejos, me and my family and we left there after the sun had set, the new day has begun once again!
But my heart is still in turmoil, I've lost my shalom once again, spiritual earthquake, I'm shaking within because he brings this dead man back to life... in my mind and in my heart. I want him to die, no more, I've already gone past him, no! I can spend the next 2 hours wrestling with the GOD of Jacob, because I can't accept what HE is telling me once again. I love it when we wrestle but I will let HIM win because HE is My HARI. But somehow, right now I want to go to sleep because my mind can't take what HE is telling me and when I try to push the thought away, HE would repeat, repeat, repeat and repeat it. So how can you deny the promptings of HIS Spirit? Even if my mind could not accept it, but my heart will give in to HIM because I love HIM, and this is how we become surrendered Soldiers, we don't serve with our minds but we do with our hearts.
With all My heart,
Yiska, the Autistic Child Journalist
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