The Kairus Year of 5985

7th Watch @APPA Coffee, Perpetual Succor

13:37 Monday 14 April 2025

According to Heather Chesiyna this year is the Kairus Year whereby Time is being redeemed by GOD's grace. I believe with her in that, the Hebraic year of 5985 is indeed the year of Redemption, Favor and Fulfillment! I will call to mind the events that happened prior to this day and write why I believe this is the Year of my Promises coming to pass!

The Night 4 Planets Aligned

On the 4th of April 2025 unknown to me, 4 Planets have aligned for it was a rare celestial event unfolding in the skies. Among them, Venus, Saturn, and Mars are visible to the naked eye, while Neptune, required a modest telescope or high-powered binoculars, to complete the quartet. But on this blessed Friday night, I was crying my heart out to GOD because I was in a lot of pain of being rejected - the pain or rejection of loving someone who does not love me back. For more than a year I have prayed consistently and faithfully for this person because he did not belong to the FATHER. Since September 19, 2023 that I met him that GOD has revealed to me Isaiah 34:16 I really thought he was the one so as I received more WORD on Yom Kippur 5984, I was really faithful to pray and even fast for him at church when we had our corporate prayer and fasting for the annual and semi annual year of 2024. But come 2025, I did not fast like I used to (doing liquid only for a week), I was giving up on my faith and everything that GOD had said to me regarding Stephen since 2023. In reality, I was somehow waiting for a tall order, a new mandate from the King and finally on March 24-25, 2025 GOD have given me the WORD that would let me let go of Stephen, 1 Samuel 15-16 was the "it's over WORD", but much to my dismay, I was still crying my heart out on the 4th of April after seeing him in our office that afternoon. I was so broken that blessed night, feeling so hopeless and shattered that I would never get over and move past Stephen. I wanted the feelings and the pain to end, but even the WORD that GOD gave me was not enough for me to move past the pain of rejection or of Stephen. Deep inside I cried "GOD when will my suffering end? When will all this pain be over? Almost in hopelessness I couldn't see my way out of the pain. Little did I know that the very same moment that I was kneeling at the feet of JESUS that my good father-like friend Joseph whom I dearly call Pajoe, had a meeting with his good friend RD and they planned for him to meet me because every time Pajoe talked to him, all Pajoe could think of was me. Pajoe was well aware of my painful moments that late friday afternoon but it worsened that very night. The very next morning, on a beautiful Shabbat day, I was caught off guard when Pajoe excitedly told me he was going to introduce me to somebody. I agreed because I was desperate enough to forget and move past Stephen, I don't want to linger in the pain anymore. I agreed to meet him on a Wednesday the 11th day of the first month of the Hebrew Calendar year 5985. I chose Sparrow because Pajoe wanted me to choose the location.

The Meeting

I was excited even though looking at his picture, I knew there nothing in his looks that I felt I would feel any sort of attraction. I was mostly curious and excited at the same time. I was excited because even if it wouldn't work out, I was going to gain more friends. I wanted to be this person's friend and add him to the hangout buddy of my week. But a couple of days leading to the meeting, I was already feeling butterflies in my stomach and I wondered to myself "how could this be since there was nothing in his looks I would be attracted to?" Finally the day arrived, they were already there before I got there, because I made sure I was not too early, but I was already in the area before they chatted they had arrived. I entered Sparrow with Sun glasses on, nervous and thrilled, he was not facing the door so he turned to look behind him and when he saw me, he was all smiles when I came to meet him. He was going to give me a hug but I was not willing to do it just yet, instead I shook his hand. I was right about what I felt at the picture and meeting him personally -he was not attractive to me at all! But when he saw me, he was very much attracted to me I could feel him loving me even when PJ sat us down beside each other. I nervously ordered, talked to them and when my food arrived, Pajoe also ordered food but he left us both to ourselves so early because he said he needed to go somewhere that he only took out the food he ordered. When PJ left, I suggested that we changed to a smaller table and so now we were looking at each other face to face and as we were talking to each other I could feel his intense energy all over me but I also felt like he was interested to share about his life more than he wanted to know about mine. I really didn't expect us to keep talking until 8pm since we started meeting at 4pm with PJ. We were alone for 3 hours at least because Dominic let PJ out of the restaurant as soon as I finished eating dinner. It was the sign that PJ was waiting for, since he agreed with Dominic that if he liked me when he saw me, he would ask PJ to leave the restaurant and he did! Alone with each other, we talked about many things but I was peeing for about every half an hour. I was drinking too much water, I was restless, but only did I understand that it was because of his pent up energy that overwhelmed me, I could not understand yet at that time what his energy was saying, why I was peeing all the time, I felt like I was coping with the restless tide surging between us, and finally after being shocked to know the time at 8PM we decided to leave, and out of nowhere I gave him a warm friendly no malice hug goodbye because I was grateful for his kindness and time, but I was startled and quite surprised to feel his hands around my waist and at that moment his hands touched my body, I felt an overwhelming power coming over me knocking me off my feet, sweeping me off weak and as I turned to leave, I dared not to look back because I was in amazing shock with only a sense of weakness and bewilderment. WOW! What was that??? I have never felt anybody touch me in such a way of want and desperation, I couldn't sleep that night. I couldn't sleep, because I could not accept what I was faced with, that there was something at the last moment of our parting, his touch was something I had been looking for in a man, his touch held me, I could feel myself surrender to his want of me, if it was love, I was captivated by it, bewitched by that short simple embrace. He held me captive with that short sweet embrace, that just like JESUS who was touched by the hands of a bleeding woman in despair and full of faith, he could not keep walking ahead, JESUS had to turn around and asked the people behind him "Who touched me?" and after discovering that it was a woman, he inquired of her story, why power came out of HIM as she touched HIM. That short encounter with Dominic was as powerful as that! He made me change my mind and think again. Wow! Pajoe was right, he was subtle and I underestimated him. After 3 days of sleepless nights, I have finally decided to marry him even if I didn't feel any attraction for him, but the way he touched me was everything I have been wanting and longing for in this temporary world, it was the touch of love and desperation, he wanted me so badly, I was weakened by it.

Today I am counting the day and hours left until I see Dominic again. I want to see him again, I miss him when we don't chat, how fast my heart and mind had changed with just that simple touch. I know he is a good man, I don't want to ask GOD anymore if he was the man HE had chosen for me. I just wanted to see that he was, I know it's going to be hard for the both of us, coming into our desires to build a home with each other, fighting for whatever obstacle that may hinder, but love is such a powerful thing that it conquers all things other than love. I want Dominic to love me fully head over hills, I don't want him to be afraid of loving me, because I have been waiting to be loved by such a pure hearted man whose Spirit has no deceit. In the few days that I have known a little about him, I have come to love this being, is it really love? I don't know but after knowing him for just a few days time, I want him to love me because I have come to love him and I prayed for him to love me more. I pray that GOD will cover us even as we begin to love each other. I pray for GOD to be in the center of our love because HE is love. Could it be that after 42 years of my existence mostly of waiting and praying for someone who would love me, that I have finally found the one whom my soul loves????

Love is a Spirit

5th Watch 5985 @ The Tabernacle Castle

11:20AM Wednesday 16 April 2025

THE REVELATION DAY

2 Timothy 1:7 For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and self-control.

Right now listening to Love songs in the Tabernacle I cry and cry because it feels like I have finally found the ONE that GOD chose for me. I cry because I have been so broken waiting for that one person to love me. How much I hurt myself for loving my husband more than GOD. I realized many things as I sit and reflect on the events that have happened. I want to write the realization and conclusions as I have been processing my thoughts to myself.

I felt power coming from the touch of Dominic and ever since he moved me I could not sleep well anymore knowing I have found what I have been praying and waiting for. The power I felt when he touched me felt like he had power over me, to subdue or conquer me. The Substance that conquers all things is none other than LOVE - TRUE LOVE. Dominic had that power over me because he loved me, even though he doesn't know it.

I am still trying to organize my thoughts on how to tell him because I am receiving instructions from GOD. So firstly I will talk about that one simple touch that moved me, that touch kept me up all night, bewildered and disturbed that I had to ask GOD what was that all about??? I explained these things (the power of his touch) to Achi Grace and Minggay that Saturday that I was in church and they were laughing about it.

So during those sleepless night, GOD would reveal to me that the power I felt was like the power JESUS felt when he was touched by a woman who had been bleeding for 12 years. Everybody was touching Him because He was walking along a crowd but when this woman touched Him, JESUS felt power come out of Him because she was desperate for Him, needing to touch JESUS because of her sickness, in faith she believed that one touch from HIM will instantly heal her and it was true indeed because JESUS told her Himself "Your faith has healed you"

Back to Dominic, when I felt that power over me, it was not a spark, it was huge and loud like a nuclear bomb loud and sweeping over me....like an earthquake that shook my whole core and being, still feeling aftershocks after that special moment, I could not sleep because that power disturbed me, and so I asked GOD what that was all about?!? and HE said "Do not look at the outward appearance, for GOD looks at the heart, look again, and discover why you felt that power, seek and you will find." So here I am asking you, who are you? I want to know you deeper in the Spirit and in the flesh.