Rock bottom

This maybe the worst thing that has happened in my life as Yiska, Princess Warrior Bride, the undefeated until one day...

Written on 23 Adar 5783 until today wala pako human

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The events happening from my birthday on May 3, 2021 towards December 1, 2021 with 7 months of online deception!!!

Even today I don't want to write about this story of my life because it is the most embarrassing tragedy that has ever happened to me, worst than being a Deceived Rebel was a Vindictive rebellious spirit but how can I be ashamed of something really tragic when this very tragedy saved my very life?

The #RUACHFIRE revealed that Mosab Hassan Yousef was going to be my King and I believed it with all of my heart, mind and money! Yeah you got that right. I bet my whole life on that Promise. But the thing about that Revelation was that I received that from a place of offense. I was so offended by my earthly father Dennis because during the War 5781 when I was still shooting against "The Ungo from Sugbo" from my Facebook wall, he got angry at me that he blew me off with his anger I was so hurt and disappointed by my own flesh and blood because I felt that he had sided with my greatest enemy. But was that War really necessary? - that today I began to ask myself. And the Warlock was so affected that he texted my father about what I was doing and my parents found out about it that they made me stop my warring, and ordered all my Facebook shut! The offense happened on May 5th and 13 days after that, I received a revelation from the Spirit Fire that Mosab was going to be my husband so I was so delighted that I found someone I could love and escape to because I felt very much unloved in the home that I protected and watched over, defended when it was attacked and in return I got a lashing on my back when my king father scolded me so hard, I felt like a 5 year old that was spanked. I cried so hard that the neighbors who were "aswang" could hear me that dreadful night that I cried towards my Queen mama and my youngest brother and sister saw me weeping aloud. I did not receive his fatherly discipline with love and that was why I had planned to get out of my home as fast as I could - Runaway method here we go again! This has always been my action plan every time I could not overcome the bitterness and anger in my heart. You should check what yours is so you can catch yourself before you damage yourself.

Finding My Escape in fantasy land

So I was shooting my arrows on Linkedin because I could not do it on Facebook anymore and coincidentally, I met someone with Mosab's surname Yousef. He said his name was Alhamdan Youssef, Syrian Christian husband to one wife Fauzia with a daughter, struggling to make ends meet in a foreign land called Greece because he was a refugee from the land of Damascus Capital of Syria. So we began interacting online, I donated some money to him at first because I felt he was pitiful and that he was something more like a spy (just like Mosab) because in Linkedin, he was always advocating for Israel the way Mosab did in any platform he speaks in public. In the middle of our socializing, he instantly recognized what I wanted from him, that I wanted him to find out where Mosab is. But what he did was very evil, he had somehow understood that I wondered if he was Mosab after all, hiding behind another man called Alhamdan. And so he pretended to be Mosab, and his story was intelligently believable. Here are the proofs of his documents and me showing you this publicly online puts my life at risk because he can always come after me with his own story and if he was a terrorist, I will be imprisoned for life! Kung mau najud ni akong kapalaran I place myself in the hands of KING JESUS My GOD.

So there he played with me in my world of Fantasy. We began an online fake relationship where all he did was lie to me pretending to be Mosab but the goal was to extract as much money as possible. See this man was more intelligent than me and so I was another captive in the hands of a merciless thief, a scammer, a hustler, a predator and I was the prey! I know that this story may sound silly and pathetic but the TRUTH is Love scams online is very very common according to statistics:

Tua! Apil jud ko anang 2021 nga perting taasa! But no matter how high statistics show us, nobody seems to be talking about their tragic experience because of the shame and embarrassment that victims experience, even after it's already said and done and they have somehow moved passed it. I say "somehow" because victims want to forget the negative feelings associated with remembering the tragic event in their life, so they don't talk about it and bury it in their graves. But any dark experience that continues to be in the dark will remain a secret that will keep haunting anyone who is keeping it.

Dear Reader, If you have any secret you are keeping from the world, this dark secret will hinder you from success and victory and will ultimately consume you unless you chose to expose this secret in the light, so I encourage you reader to tell someone about your secrets, pour out your heart to any trusted counselor that loves you. I am not telling you to do what I'm doing by telling the whole wide world (www.mystory.com) what happened to me by writing it here, no! All I am saying is to tell someone, it's different with me, my parents already know this story but I have not told my siblings about my stupidity because it tears me up that I have not been a good example to my younger siblings it's like failing to be "the eldest" in the home that has been entrusted to me. But somehow sooner or later they will find out and I just have to face the reality of it all. I failed them, I failed GOD. So? GOD won't stop forgiving me, I won't stop being their eldest sibling. That does not diminish my order as the Firstborn in the Family. A firstborn is a role I do not take lightly and I chose to uphold it with all honor and integrity for fear I would end up like Esau because of his negligence to the things that are important to GOD. Yet, today I chose to write about my shameful experience because I am Soldier of a Commander in HIS Army in a Battle and KING JESUS wants you to know that soldiers need to be wounded and broken so that they can fight for those who are wounded and broken and bring them to the KING who alone can heal them and restore them, make them whole once again. So, I encourage you to find someone to tell all your secrets to, tell someone because someone in this World loves you! There is always someone, I promise you and if you can't find anyone - AKO! HINENI!!! Here I am, you can send me an email and we will meet. Okay?

Back to My Scam Story:

I had given the scammer all the money that I have and even beyond that because I wanted Mosab to come to the Philippines. I was in a very huge debt, because he made me feel that I was his heroine, Mosab is facing cases and he doesn't have money anymore to fight and defend himself. Naa pato storya bahin iyang Lawyer namatay going to a court case and I really believed all his lies because of my idolatrous heart that ran after a human hero and not the Superhero - GOD.

But you have to know, Mosab was not just another human, he is Hero to both Israel and Palestine two opposing countries always at war. He was worth the 2 Million I lost to but to give it to the hands of a scammer hurt me most. Okay nalang jud unta to if it was in Mosab's hands even if I would not end up with him because he is worth more than 2 million, he was worth the life and blood of KING JESUS that I love. Don't you know you are worth more than 2 Million too? Because KING JESUS died for you, and he also died for Alhamdan the scammer, so right now this is me releasing my scammer to GOD. If you are reading this Alhamdan, I forgive you, I release you, I pray you will truly see the KING who has been running after your heart. HE loves you so much! Surrender to HIM now.

After being unable to pay all my credit cards, I confessed my troubles to my parents and my mother was the first one I spoke to and somehow she was more understanding than my father was and at time lowest point of my life, I felt how much a mother could love their children even in their worst mistakes and troubles. I was saved from being imprisoned of debt - it was a fortune that could have bought me a house and lot if I were to invest that money that was taken from me all because I wanted to leave the family that had raised me. You may say this is a rich man's kind of trouble. But the troubles I had in all my life were all very spiritual, it's not about having a lack because I always had more than enough and more than what I needed but GOD in HIS righteous judgment would give me so much because HE has a plan to save the souls of many others that HE is sending me to them.

The Wrecked

So, I was continually deceived from the end of May or Iyar until the begining of Kislev or the very first day of December where I finally let go of all lies and false hopes because I realized that I have been a fool for love all this time - once again! Permi nalang? When will I ever learn? I think I am the worst hopeless romantic in the World, don't you think so? Then came the biggest Typhoon that hit my Sugbo since the year 1993 and her name was Odette. Before this physical typhoon came that caused significant damage towards My City and Islands of Sugbo, was the biggest Odette that I experienced in all my life but the name was not Odette but an Alhamdan! So pag abot sa Odette I felt the weather was just expressing what the scammer did to me. I was Wrecked - he came in like a wrecking ball! just like how Miley Cyrus sang. (Karelate najud ko ni Miley - Paeta!) Wala rako ma affected sa Odette because I already felt so wrecked from the scam experience in the first place, during Odette I was already in the survival mode, picking up the pieces of my broken soul but I could never put myself back together from this Wrecking ball that wrecked the hell out of me.

The Provision of Deliverance

It was clear to me that if GOD breaks a Soldier, HE would be the ONE to bind up the wounds of a fallen warrior. It was November 2021 a month before the BIG Blow (facing reality vs fantasy), that GOD brought me to another Mary on Earth who introduced me to the ones who would help me pay my huge debt through their work and ideas by working together as a team that would sell off the Townhouses my father built in Mactan. But because of Odette everything was a standstill, survival mode, without the use of electric power for a month. I found comfort in the hardship of that month where we had to line up for gasoline, we had to find water to drink because I did not want to feel depressed and in pain for the troubles that I put myself in. I was beyond broken, I felt dead and I did not know how GOD was going to heal me because it was beyond my human limitation of imagination. There was not enough reason in this world for that kind of pain. I kept asking GOD and myself, what was all that pain for? #process and I kept #processing myself for the succeeding days of my life. #trusttheprocess But I could not ever find an explanation or reasonable reason to something so horrible! It was horrible! I felt like a virgin raped more pa gani - ravaged and murdered and the body thrown from the top of mountains like the Cheung sisters. May their souls rest peacefully today even their families whose hearts and lives had been ravaged and murdered just as they were.

The Quiet after the Storm

And then came the stillness after the storm with a brand new year on the horizon. I entered January 2022 a dead soul, but all I felt when I came into the presence of My ABBA FATHER was a very deep sense of sorrow. This GOD who loved me has shown me the other side of HIM when HE had broken me. I had almost died, almost went to prison because of my stupidity and vindictive spirit. I cried during our quiet times, when I was with HIM, HE would just let me cry my pain and pour my heart out because I could not deal with the depth of all of it. I lost confidence and trust in the GOD that I loved, it seemed like I never really knew HIM at all. I was crying every single morning that I was with My FATHER GOD of every single day from January to June of the Year 2022! It was supposed to be a 222 year, what happened here???

What happened here??? No answers, just silence...

When GOD allows pain and such troubles in your life, HE never does it without a very important purpose and if we continue doing what HE has called us to, if we just hold on to HIM never letting go, if we just hang on to HIM for dear life, we would never regret anything if we fully put our trust in GOD for HE, Faithful and True, KING JESUS the CHRIST will turn everything around for our good, no matter what, HE always has our back working out all things for our good. Everything is always for our good Sweet Child of GOD, never forget, always remember that! And so I leave you with a song here, and I leave you my story without closure, a little hanging, so that you will flip the pages of the stories of Yiska that KING JESUS authored in My Life.

This Song greatly comforted me in my time of pain, death and unbearable pain. I pray it comforts you broken soul. Let the pain burn in your heart, release all your tears to HIM, let it all out, let it go...

Truthfully Yours,